My arms are so empty. My big boy walks by himself, plays on the floor, and is getting quite independent. Most of you know that I have always wanted a large family of six kids. (Yes, I know that monetarily, that is not too smart of me.) I am also getting older and am terrified of being an old mom to a little kid.
I want a baby now, no, not now. Yesterday. Last month. Last year.
Argh. I pray for God to allow us to be the family He wants for us to be. That is really hard since it means giving up on my desires for the dream family. God knows us better than we do and He will provide what and when. I know that. (In my mind.) My heart is aching and my arms are constantly reaching for my neighbor's little boy or any baby within reach.
Alex is so perfect. Don't get me wrong. I love him dearly. But he needs a sibling to wrestle with and yell at on occasion. Homeschooling will be near impossible with only one kid. Alex will be way too spoiled by the grandparents unless he learns to share with a brother or sister.
Please be in prayer for us as we are getting a little impatient now and need God's peace.
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We are praying for God's timing and His provision and what that looks like.. love you
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